its over !

So much anger,
And resentment inside.
All I can ever do,
Is begin to wonder why.
How did you cause this,
You must have cracked the mold.

I broke apart from society,
Set apart from the norm.
When all I ever wanted to do,
Is to start over
As no one can accept us even me or you

It is time to go back home where my heart can stay cold
My hands start to shake,
my voice cracks as I try to speak,
My head is lost in confusion,
For I can't think of what to say.
Where to begin.
Where to end.

Should I even start?
What good would it bring?
What pain could it cause?
I say this to myself,

You found a way into my coldness.
Yet I thought we were finding the way out together.
With your help, I was doing the impossible.
Feeling, living, laughing, loving.

If I could wish just for a last dose yet I strive for many.
So that I could keep your loving warmth near me,
And that I would never become cold again
With you by my side.
I had no choice but to lie

For how much I hated you not now not forever
As memories became just disappointments of what tomorrow can be.
I had stopped to believe and know now it is time to leave
I am trying to believe that you are never to deceive
You'd bring out the best in me that had my heart warm out
and you are bringing out the worst in me
that made me share of fears of losing you

Yet my fears had begun to go and it was time to let you go
I had lost the believe that used to make us two
As much I hate to say this but it is time to say it is over

I loved it when you hit me
Cause I knew it was just for play
I miss it when you leave me
but i wished it was only for a day

You kissed my sores all better the day i met you
Made it feel all right
You often couldn't sleep when I was with you
and I loved to talk all night

You pretend I'm not important but It's not in your eyes
it's cute the things you do make me feel you are worth the fight
So I didn't mind the lies knowing you are with me till the end
but it all changed and i wish I could turn things back in time
as each time I try to help things I end by pushing you far away

I can not lose more than what i lost already
being far away makes me miss everything about you
As I sallow my emotions knowing things are not the same
I don’t think you’ll ever understand just how I feel
yet I am trying my best to explain

that what I miss is something you took away
of me being safe with you
this had raised up my anger made me lose hope and control
I may be not who you knew but I am sure you are not him either
I am sorry for not being able to carry this any longer