I am a dictator !

I am a dictator !

A godest ...
a rebel ...


I ain't a saint
I aint's nothing but the devil ...

I own my chair
I earned it the way I should

I fought the game hard
and bleeded the truth
just the taste of resistance,
reminded me of the forbidden fruit !

I learnt that the hard way
that time had crawled for me ...
its was my time to shine now,

remembering my place, my status , my condition
my people are watching,
and you can't save my face,
I am gasping for air,
in which war just started now ,,,
and forever it will be ending

Yet my demons had took over me ...
again The devil is here
Hush ..
I Can hear him too ...

Being my self matters ..
yes ...
thats what he said

Am I a dreamer ..
or just a confused rebel
trying to climb her way out ...

Am I am leader ...
or just a follower of making others hopes and dreams come true ...
I have lived days to wonder on what is it for me you know ...

And this is my story ,,,
I have nothing to do neither in civil rights nor leadership ...
I find my words made you worship me ???
expecting nothing but elite ??
me ?? why ??

I walk the path as if I am a creator ...
with endless vision of a better a tomorrow ...


Am I a liar ??
Of what promising life it would be
moving out of the chains and vanquish you
vanquish who ever was right
in supporting interests and selling their believes


Yes I am a dictator !
I tell u the truth
I am selfish
I don't bargin
and I hate all human that they do

My soul is not for sale
nor are my believes
I do what I see is right
even if my lost was you !

My Friends ?? who are they
My followers ?? Non that you know !!

I am a women with honor for standing up for what I do !
I have rights ...
My own conditions
And if you hate them
I don't blame you if you do ...

I’m stuck in this position
In a sea of criticism
Muttered in code
Not even you Could revise my decision

Am I a fighter ??
or a disgruntled worker
Demanding fair rights
Making my way
Through the fights


Preaching violence
Advocating sickness
Screaming my insanity
Unleashing madness for my voice to be herd !!

I know I am a dictator ...
it is a part in me never seen
I am telling you what my problems are

As if you didn't knew them already
my personal flaws
Draw me the right to be here
I take what I should value most
waking up from living like we were vegetables

Influenced by everything around me
What else was I but unsecured?

Take my heart into account
It has never seen the light
Dress me up, throw me down
I can never change for the better

Its all decided that I am a failure
I don’t care about your orders
They tell me who I am not
I just don’t fit in with the rest of your prized possessions

A vital chair
Sitting on the throne of conformity
Thriving on the praise we give them
Our lives and our souls

Mean nothing in comparison
their reign extends to the far corners of the world
the shame of a social democracy shatters
I see the true dictatorship
Formed throughout our lives

And that is why I am a dictator !!